erja
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
remembering ayah (1949 - 1997)
Memory is a mind game. You think you remember what happened years ago in your life, but it takes hard mental digging to recall how it really was. Sometimes you may be right on target; other times distortion clouds the memory. Yet, there are certain events where the mood of the moment remains and can come back to bring you chills inside, and suddenly, with not much effort, you remember exactly how you felt.
It was 8 years ago and it is still very fresh in my mind. I had to say goodbye to you only after few hours met. I was not prepared. When I look at your picture, I am filled with so much grief. It is unbearable knowing that you are only here in spirit now.
You gave me so much encouragement and support. I learned how to think like you, to act like you, to be like you. Making you proud was so important to me. The loss I feel for you is too great for words. It is difficult to imagine life without you.
You were a wonderful father. You taught me how to be strong and your strength lives on. There is an incredible emptiness without your presence. The only thing that keeps me going in this time of sorrow is my faith in God and the hope that one day I will see you again in heaven. InsyaAllah.
Al-Fatihah.
It was 8 years ago and it is still very fresh in my mind. I had to say goodbye to you only after few hours met. I was not prepared. When I look at your picture, I am filled with so much grief. It is unbearable knowing that you are only here in spirit now.
You gave me so much encouragement and support. I learned how to think like you, to act like you, to be like you. Making you proud was so important to me. The loss I feel for you is too great for words. It is difficult to imagine life without you.
You were a wonderful father. You taught me how to be strong and your strength lives on. There is an incredible emptiness without your presence. The only thing that keeps me going in this time of sorrow is my faith in God and the hope that one day I will see you again in heaven. InsyaAllah.
Al-Fatihah.
Friday, December 16, 2005
i should have known better
Mak woke me up around 3:30 a.m. this morning.
“Dik, nenek sakit kuat. She is having difficulty to breath. Mak nak balik kampung. Adik ikut?”
There was a long pause from me.
“Mak boleh ajak Along atau Pak Teh? I have an important meeting to attend this morning”.
“Mak balik dengan Along. Erja ikut sekali, ya?”
I said OK and went down to pack baju for Erja.
Erja seems very excited even though she has to get up earlier than usual. I saw her packing Pinky (bear) and Emma (doll) in her PowerPuff Girls bag.
They left around 6:30 a.m.
While I was driving to work this morning, I thought of what I said to Mak. I was being selfish! Prioritizing my work above my family.
I remember few weeks ago, Nenek called me. She asked me why didn’t I to bring Erja back to Masjid Tanah on hari raya. She wanted to see Erja badly.
I feel horrible… horrible…
“Dik, nenek sakit kuat. She is having difficulty to breath. Mak nak balik kampung. Adik ikut?”
There was a long pause from me.
“Mak boleh ajak Along atau Pak Teh? I have an important meeting to attend this morning”.
“Mak balik dengan Along. Erja ikut sekali, ya?”
I said OK and went down to pack baju for Erja.
Erja seems very excited even though she has to get up earlier than usual. I saw her packing Pinky (bear) and Emma (doll) in her PowerPuff Girls bag.
They left around 6:30 a.m.
While I was driving to work this morning, I thought of what I said to Mak. I was being selfish! Prioritizing my work above my family.
I remember few weeks ago, Nenek called me. She asked me why didn’t I to bring Erja back to Masjid Tanah on hari raya. She wanted to see Erja badly.
I feel horrible… horrible…
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
i came, i saw and i conquered
This is to certify that The Jamie has climbed the (Hugh) Low's Peak, the summit of Mount Kinabalu (4095.2 m) on 10 December 2005.
It was tougher than giving birth to Erja . I kid you not! But I did it!
It was tougher than giving birth to Erja . I kid you not! But I did it!
Friday, November 11, 2005
what are you doing in December?
This is what I think I should be doing in 2006. Here are the three (3) things I have in mind:-
Take a break. Chill out!
When I flipped my diary today, I realised that my schedule in November is packed!. I will be on business trip (again) until end of month, to India and Singapore.
With another 10-days annual leave to utilise beforeyear-end, I need to start planning a holiday trip. Oh well, I've been working the whole year of 2005 and I think I deserve to take a rest.
I am going to climb Mount Kinabalu with Wanie on the second week of December. This is my chance to spend some time to relax with the family, rejuvenate and prepare myself for more challenging job next year. I hope to be more productive.
Reflect on my life
I want to look back at what I have done in 2005. Have I achieved my goal?
Planning and strategize
A month and a half to go and it's 2006. I need to plan and set my goals.
Take a break. Chill out!
When I flipped my diary today, I realised that my schedule in November is packed!. I will be on business trip (again) until end of month, to India and Singapore.
With another 10-days annual leave to utilise beforeyear-end, I need to start planning a holiday trip. Oh well, I've been working the whole year of 2005 and I think I deserve to take a rest.
I am going to climb Mount Kinabalu with Wanie on the second week of December. This is my chance to spend some time to relax with the family, rejuvenate and prepare myself for more challenging job next year. I hope to be more productive.
Reflect on my life
I want to look back at what I have done in 2005. Have I achieved my goal?
Planning and strategize
A month and a half to go and it's 2006. I need to plan and set my goals.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
(a rose) by any other name
I am back from my Raya holiday, and normal blog posting will resume slowly but surely.
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Ramadhan Al-Mubarak
1.
Travelling has taken so much of my time. I barely have time with Erja, my family and even myself. Not to mention updating my blog. So, that was one of many reasons why the blog has been dormant.
I discovered a lot of things which need to be done especially for my family, particularly Erja.
I also realised the more airtime Erja gets from her Abah (when I'm not in the country), she became closer and they bond pretty well.
Erja's song of the month is Yellow Submarine by The Beatles.
2.
This blog will go on hibernation mode throughout Ramadhan. I shall return when the time permits, hopefully soon after Aidilfitri.
3.
Hitung syukurmu di istana rahmatNya
Renung sukarmu di penjara dosa-dosa
Moga keberkatan Ramadhan
Agar kemuliaan Syawal
Menjadi mahar seorang hamba
Untuk melamar cinta TuhanNya
Selamat Berpuasa dan Salam Aidilfitri (in advance) kepada semua umat Islam.
That is all for now, until we meet again.
Travelling has taken so much of my time. I barely have time with Erja, my family and even myself. Not to mention updating my blog. So, that was one of many reasons why the blog has been dormant.
I discovered a lot of things which need to be done especially for my family, particularly Erja.
I also realised the more airtime Erja gets from her Abah (when I'm not in the country), she became closer and they bond pretty well.
Erja's song of the month is Yellow Submarine by The Beatles.
2.
This blog will go on hibernation mode throughout Ramadhan. I shall return when the time permits, hopefully soon after Aidilfitri.
3.
Hitung syukurmu di istana rahmatNya
Renung sukarmu di penjara dosa-dosa
Moga keberkatan Ramadhan
Agar kemuliaan Syawal
Menjadi mahar seorang hamba
Untuk melamar cinta TuhanNya
Selamat Berpuasa dan Salam Aidilfitri (in advance) kepada semua umat Islam.
That is all for now, until we meet again.